Willing to Move Far: Surprising Others, Surprising Myself

I think many people, family and colleagues, have been surprised by my willingness to interview and potentially move from Texas to places like California or New York. Don't you want to stay in Texas? I hear them say. I don't really know how to answer that question. It seems like right now in my life, what I want geographically just does not matter. Sure, I would like to stay in Texas.. but even staying in Texas does not guarantee I will stay by family or good friends.

In fact, as much as I don’t mind being in Lubbock, my closest friends here have been my co-workers, who have been deep friends with me in my ministry last year and this year. I have found friendships at church as well, but unlike in Houston, Marshall, or Abilene, so far no best friends have surfaced. And the amazing thing is I survived my move here from Abilene to Lubbock... and I have grown so much. I am farther from friends and family than I have ever been. It was hard. But I have grown leaps and bounds, for the better.

Actually, for a while I did plan on just staying in Texas, and who knows, I might still. Until I get a job, not just interviews, it is really all up in the air. But yes, at first thinking of moving so far was difficult for me, but the thought of staying and taking some job that did not fulfill me really worried me. Before I came to Lubbock I worked two jobs, about 55-60 hours per week and made basically nothing. I was wearing myself out to survive and was barely able to pay bills. If I can avoid that, I will do it at all costs.

I would also really like to pay off as many of my student loans in the next 5-10 years as possible. I am fine living simplistic. I really enjoy renting and being single helps. I have no problem with living the way I have so I may actually be able to pay off all my student loan debt (with a better paying and professional ministry job) in those 5-10 years.

However, not all of this is financial; some of it is intellectual and spiritual. Intellectually, when I was working retail, I knew everyday I was not using my gifts and talents. I did learn how the other side lives and it did afford me the opportunity to meet different people who were not in my "Christian Bubble"; however, I longed so deeply to do ministry. I long for that now. I long for it more than staying in Texas.

Lastly, I think of Abraham, who moved to a foreign land, far away from what he knew. It was what was needed at the time. Moving far away may be what I need. People ask me: How will you know it is God's will? I think of God's will as generally open and sometimes specific, which means as a Christian I am compassionate towards others, as an religious professional I seek out all open and potential doors to serve, and as a person, that God wants good things for me, but I must also do some work. And yet, somehow, after I have moved or gone through a time of trial, in hindsight, I am often able to see God's plan unfolding, but I do not think God articulates and plans every second of our life beforehand. I think God is with us, guiding us, rejoicing and mourning with us through our times of triumph and struggle.

So, I suppose I have surprised some of my family and friends by being open to moving so far away... and the truth is I surprise myself too. A few years ago I would have been too stuck in fear to move so far, but moving to Lubbock and learning more about myself, I know that no matter where I am that God is with me and I will always be connected with my dear friends and family. God bless you all and prayers are appreciated. It brings me much peace facing such a change to be washed in the prayers of the saints, the prayers of my dear family and friends.

~ Daniel Brockhan

Weight Loss, Self-Denial, and Deeper Spirituality

A year ago I decided to change myself for the better, though exercising, eating healthier, and losing weight. In addition to losing fifty pounds this past year, I have begun to have a different relationship with food. I have noticed how intense some of my cravings can get, especially during times when I am bored or stressed.

I knew some people had a negative relationship with food, but I never really considered that I had that problem as well. However, in the last two weeks with multiple call backs for future employment and five job interviews, I noticed my anxiety went up and it was a lot harder to control my impulse to splurge. This made me think about how we look at food in this country. Is it something to nourish us, to help us have happy and healthy lives? Or is food more of a way for us to enjoy ourselves, to seek pleasure in the bite.

For so long I ate whatever I wanted. I was never eating a lot but the food I chose to eat was not good for me. The food I ate tasted good, so my mind and my senses were told "This taste good! Give us more of that!" This got me thinking this week about the connection between food, weight, and our spiritual life. I think sometimes we slip on the rules, not realizing the rules and boundaries of faith are not chains but ways to help us life happy and healthier lives, while also making us closer to our Creator, self, and those around us.

When we indulge in our temporary pleasure or satisfaction, which we call sin, we are not thinking long term. We are not thinking about the affects it will have on us, others, or our relationship with God. We are not thinking about how much we may regret those decisions in the future. When we indulge in sin, our flesh desires more and more, our senses and our past experiences have told us that those things taste good despite the fact those things weigh us down and burden us.

Pondering about all these things this week has made me curious: Why do we not fast more in the United States? Are you aware that in most other nations, fasting is a regular spiritual discipline for most Christians? Perhaps this speaks to our overindulgence of things here in the states. Perhaps it speaks to our overabundance which signifies our lack of simplicity. Perhaps it showcases our desire to get pleasure fast, only worrying about the present while neglecting our happiness and livelihood into the future.

Might there be things we can fast from, where even once a week or a month it could positively affect our lives? What about fasting from food, television, movies, smart phones, cell phones, or one of the many other hurried and habitual things we do in our lives, taking no time to ask why we do these things or if they are good for us.

Maybe it is time to reassess some things. Maybe that is what fasting is all about, self-denial... and in that self denial we grow to know God, others, and self in a more profound way.

Do you think America over consumes?

Do you think you over consume? How so?

What do you think about the disciple of fasting?

Have you ever fasted? If so, how and why?

Like. Share. Comment. Discuss.

~ Daniel Brockhan

Book Review: The Way by Christopher St. Clair II

The Way (The Terran Empire Series) [Kindle Edition]

Christopher St. Clair II (Author)

Kindle Edition: .99 cents or Free w/ Amazon Prime.

Paperback Edition: $14.99.

The story, from the authors own words at the conclusion of the book, is a retelling of Paul’s journey; except the setting for this is far into the future. By this time religion has been outlawed, Muslims have made an Islamic community on the outskirts of the empire and Christians, known as followers of “The Way”, are hunted down, tortured, and killed.

If you are like me, I do not normally enjoy a lot of “Christian” Fiction (Sci-Fi, mystery, etc.) because I think a lot of it leaves the grit in humanity out of the equation; however, the grit, the evil and harsh undertones are the very reasons I think humanity needs a savior. This books does a great job at both retelling Paul’s story in a futuristic space setting, looking at the grit in humanity, and also pondering the questions of why people become Christian and how are they different from others (or in what ways should they be different from others).

I give this book four out of five stars. Why not five out of five? Well, there were a few places where poor editing was noticeable; however, it was not enough to distract from the books readability. My biggest qualm with the book was that the author could have drawn it out better, creating more suspense. Despite the fact that this is a retelling of Paul, the reader does not really know that fact unless they read a ways into the story and are familiar with the Bible. My only real critique would have been to draw out the chase in the first book, seemingly making the Christians looks like the Villains (not calling them followers of “The Way” but instead calling them criminals throughout the book), and then at the end of the book the big reveal is that they are being chased down for being Christians. An example of this kind of suspense was in the movie “Book of Eli”. *Spoiler Alert* At the end of the movie it is revealed (1) The man is Blind and (2) The Book he is carrying are the scriptures. If these had been revealed earlier in the movie, it would not have made the ending so special and dramatic.

All things being considered though, this is my friend’s first work and is certainly worth a read and even a re-read. My qualms with the book are minimal and the story itself is really engaging and picks up as the book moves along. The end seems open for the possibility of a second book, one I hope will be written. I would love to dive more deeply into this story, its characters, and its world.

~ Daniel Brockhan

Making All Things New

"Then I saw “a new heaven and a new earth,” for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” – Rev. 21:1-5

Here in Revelation, John writes that many things will change. God’s relationship with humanity and humanity’s relationship with God will be different. The hold that sin has and its affect on us as individuals and communities will be torn. However, what struck me the most this week was when God will utter the phrase, “I am making everything new!”

Listen to the weight of that statement. God is not saying some things or even most things, but everything. In the end there is going to be a different orientation for all things. However, I think that is where many of us as Christians are stuck. God is saying these things in the end. God is changing things in the future.

Shall we limit God making all things new to our future only?
What about our present; is God making all things new right now?

I believe this goes into questioning what one believes about God’s Kingdom. Is the Kingdom of God something that comes in the end, once sin is finally wiped out; or is it an unfolding that has been and will continue to take place, finding its completion at the second coming? What do we say about such parables, like that of the mustard-seed or of the dough, among others? (MT 13:24-30; 31-35).

Beyond those examples, what about the numerous references about the Kingdom of God being in the here and hereafter, that it is now and not-yet (MT 13:47-52; LK 17:20-21; 19:11-27; 22:14-18)? I think this means that once we become Christians, not only were we saved, but we have become a part of the Kingdom that has been unfolding since the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ.

God is already using his church to begin bringing about a peaceable kingdom; yet in this current time and place, sin is still a very real part of the life of humanity. Sin is a reality not only to those who are not part of that Kingdom, but also to those who are as well. For as much as the spirit of God resides in us as individuals and as community, so long as we are still in these fleshly bodies, sin will creep in and distort the spirit, will distort the original Imago Deo in which God created us (Gen 1:27).

What does any of this mean for us as individuals?

I think this means that as Christians, God is working within us, changing us, transforming us; perhaps getting us ready to be a part of his Kingdom, even right now, this very moment. It is no longer a choice of if we love God (or if God loves us, we know that already). No longer a choice of if we believe Jesus died (We are already saved, part of the Kingdom). No, now it is a choice if we will follow God (Will we live the things Jesus lived, said, and taught?). Now it is a choice if we will enact and be representatives of this new kingdom. Not later, but right now, every day.

I have been thinking about this a lot lately as it related to my own life. I am now on the precipice of another life change and transition. I have loved and enjoyed my residency where I have worked as a hospital chaplain; yet I am already starting to mourn the loss of this time and this ministry. I have about six months before this residency ends. Right now my future is gray, hazy, foggy. While I am applying for positions, the not knowing can be terrifying.

Then I read this scripture and it makes me think… If God will make all things new and if this process is already started, then God is making me new as well. God is molding me. I am who I am because of who God made me, but also because of all the experiences and learning I have had from my past. I regret nothing looking back. There have been times of joy and sorrow, but all those experiences, all those feelings have made me who I am. To continue to grow, I must move on, I must go to the next area that God has for me.

I do not know where that area is right now; however, I do know that God has stood alongside me in the past. I know that after all the transitions of my life up to this time I have survived and grown stronger. I know that all those times I was anxious, worried, fearful, scared; those feelings left. I grew and was changed for the better. Today, I look forward to whatever changes come my way next. I know that as long as I focus on Christ and have family and friends to lean on and lift me up in prayer, I will continue growing. I will continue on this journey I started the moment I accepted Christ and became part of the vast and glorious Kingdom, kept in the hands of God and my savior Christ Jesus.

~ Daniel Brockhan