So, it is now almost June, in two months I will be out of my apartment and in three in another town. However, this last month has been not only making me feel more comfortable about the idea of this program the next year but about pursuing hospital chaplaincy in general. Why? What has changed?
First, the last month I have once again been looking for a job, well a summer job, but the process is the same and since I have applied for 20+ places and only had one call for a phone interview, it makes me remember why I applied for this program and why I cannot stand the current job market but also why I desperately need to branch out and do something with my degree, even if it is something I did not plan. Sometimes to grow one must take risks, these risks stretch us, make us into better people, and help pave the road for who we will be in the future. Without taking risks, we become someone defeated, someone predictable, and someone who lacks the potential for change, flexibility, and growth; not only emotionally, but also spiritually.
Second, there have been a lot of changes going on at my store recently, a lot of people leaving and/or moving up (getting promoted). I know myself, and if I had not gotten into the program when I did and was set to move, I would probably be moving up (& that would have been comfortable for me). Now, it wouldn't have been bad but it wouldn't be stretching me and it would not be what I really want to do in life, in effect, I would be promoted but likely not truly happy. The good thing is, there are people besides myself who could use this chance, so in a way it works out for everyone... but I guess I am seeing God's timing in all of this right now, like it is almost too perfect to be a coincidence. I mean, what are the odds that right before I am planning to move, after two years of working stock, a plethora of openings would occur.
I think I can now say with full confidence that this is where God is leading me, has been leading me, at least for the next year, if not a new route for my life. God truly is mysterious, and His ways are so much easier to see in hindsight then in the confusion of the moment He speaks or changes the direction of our life. Still, it is a lot of hard work on our part physically to do, emotionally to trust, and spiritually to have the faith to move forward - but in doing so transformation can, does, and will occur.
Now the only two obstacles left for me now is having an apartment open up and making the move to Lubbock in August.. and then the new stage, a much better stage, in my life can begin.
First, the last month I have once again been looking for a job, well a summer job, but the process is the same and since I have applied for 20+ places and only had one call for a phone interview, it makes me remember why I applied for this program and why I cannot stand the current job market but also why I desperately need to branch out and do something with my degree, even if it is something I did not plan. Sometimes to grow one must take risks, these risks stretch us, make us into better people, and help pave the road for who we will be in the future. Without taking risks, we become someone defeated, someone predictable, and someone who lacks the potential for change, flexibility, and growth; not only emotionally, but also spiritually.
Second, there have been a lot of changes going on at my store recently, a lot of people leaving and/or moving up (getting promoted). I know myself, and if I had not gotten into the program when I did and was set to move, I would probably be moving up (& that would have been comfortable for me). Now, it wouldn't have been bad but it wouldn't be stretching me and it would not be what I really want to do in life, in effect, I would be promoted but likely not truly happy. The good thing is, there are people besides myself who could use this chance, so in a way it works out for everyone... but I guess I am seeing God's timing in all of this right now, like it is almost too perfect to be a coincidence. I mean, what are the odds that right before I am planning to move, after two years of working stock, a plethora of openings would occur.
I think I can now say with full confidence that this is where God is leading me, has been leading me, at least for the next year, if not a new route for my life. God truly is mysterious, and His ways are so much easier to see in hindsight then in the confusion of the moment He speaks or changes the direction of our life. Still, it is a lot of hard work on our part physically to do, emotionally to trust, and spiritually to have the faith to move forward - but in doing so transformation can, does, and will occur.
Now the only two obstacles left for me now is having an apartment open up and making the move to Lubbock in August.. and then the new stage, a much better stage, in my life can begin.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD.“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it." - Isaiah 55:8-11
"Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit." 2nd Corinthians 3:17-18~ Daniel
